Hilang

Hilang

Satu hari aku mencari

Keabadian, jawapan pasti

Berlari aku berlari

Mencari akan dirimu ..

Kau hadir bagaikan mimpi

Dan kau pergi tak ku sedari

Oh..Berlari… aku berlari

Ku mencari.. aku mencari tapi

Kau hilang….

Ohh..kau hilang…

Aku menuggu, engkau di sana..

Menanti aku ke akhir masa..

Di awan biru , kita berjanji

Di atas bintang kita menari

Di padang itu , aku terus menanti

Hadirnya engkau yg ku cintai

Mengapa oh kenapa

Engkau pergi, tanpa ku rela

Ke mana engkau, oh di mana

Seorang diri pergi kau kembara.

dan

Kau hilang….

Ohh..kau hilang…

Aku menuggu, engkau di sana..

Menanti aku ke akhir masa..

Engkau hilang…

Kau hilang..

Kau hilang..

Aku hilang..

Di situ…

(was inspired to write this song after watching the time traveler's wife )


approved by loved ones. lol =D

kenangan

buat kazem dan jehan
anda masih ingat malam itu?



baling kertas kebawah..harap2 dia dapat
kucai hanya mampu geleng kepala..hehehehehhe =D

slowly.

it was raining..but she's still standing there waiting
for something that she don't know if it is true..

who was never hers,
but always belongs to another person, place & time,
and she waits.

this is her summer,
this is her dream,
this is her star,
.....

and I am near tears and I don’t know why..

monologue

It’s hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he’s okay. It’s hard to be the one who stays.

I keep myself busy.

Time goes faster that way.

I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I’m tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that’s been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by absence? Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship.

Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.

Why has he gone where I cannot follow?...

(The Time Traveler's Wife)

someday, yes..maybe someday.

"And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so."

I’ll never be another face in the crowd, I just want to be the one to hold you next to me

it's the things we do sometimes, that no one will ever understand..or the words unspoken, that eventually are better left unsaid..

it's the things that we have to do, to be able to make things right for you walk on the right path.

"If you look at the stars tonight

Oh how beautiful they are

You don’t have to make a wish

Because the wishes come to you

I’ll never be another face in the crowd

I just want to be the one to hold you next to me

If you look at the sun shining

See it peeking through the clouds

As the flowers they bloom

Won’t be as beautiful as you

I’ll never be another face in the crowd

I just want to be the one to hold you next to me

I’ll make it up to you.." (ahm, 2009)

so maybe they will never understand..why we choose to do what we do today..or the decision that we make, or the action that we take.

maybe it's not a great thing, or not even something that you can have its glory moment. but we know, what's worth to be hold til the end.

and maybe, we just want things in a simpler way, but the surrounding makes it complicated for us to breath..

maybe, the feelings that i have inside are just too deep for me to reveal

or maybe because you're not here with me, to tell me that everything will alright at the end of day.

and promise, " i'll make it up to you"

for what it's worth, i'll still holiding on to it true.

minggu gila

minggu gila. ya.
minggu ni minggu gila aku.
kerja panjang berjela
tak kenal waktu
macam macam orang aku jumpa
semua berlainan lagu.
sampai kadang kadang buat aku terlupa
siapa diri kau siapa diri aku..
bukan perkara yang tak biasa..
semua pernah aku lalui
mungkin salah aku, sebab aku yang biar ia tersisa
sampai rasa hati, iman dan waras aku teruji.

satu, kertas periksa
dua, kereta hijau yang raksasa
tiga, manusia yang perasan mereka perkasa

satu, sudah kerja aku
setakat satu dua ratus kertas memang makanan aku
ada hari memang la ada rasa nak naik jemu aku
but who cares, itu lah kerja kesayangan aku.

dua, kereta aku yg memang sejati
mana-mana saja dia ikut aku pergi
tiba-tiba dia semacam jauh hati
buat aku gelabah sampai sakit gigi

tiga, ragam warna makhluk kau panggil manusia
yang rasa jiwa raga mereka sahaja yang ada harga
tak faham maksud "kau mahu org hormat kau, kau hormat dulu mereka"
yang tahu hanya "i want this and that you know aww aww"

minggu gila.

aku jenis buat hal aku, tak kisah la waras atau merapu.
tapi dengar sini babe, kau takmo carik hal dengan aku.

aku tak kisah orang nak buat jadi arah tuju
tapi tolonglah, jangan nak jadi peniru

sumpah. aku bukan reti sangat nak seranah
tapi kalau aku dah mula bising, telinga pun boleh naik nanah

minggu gila.

aku pulang dengan jiwa marah.
bila terpadang kalimah itu, aku sedar lalu berserah
tak guna nak mengeluh kesah
sebab aku tahu belum masanya untuk mengalah


*malam sebelum tido..*

"ma..know what"

"hmm...."

"nani rindu mama masa kat ofis tadi."

terus mama angkat tangan kiri dan peluk badan aku.
malam itu aku lena dalam pelukan seorang wanita yang ikhlas cinta aku

dan marah dan penat aku hilang di kala itu...


p/s: (kwn2 maaf kalau ada kerja yang pending, isnin aku akan settlekan the load )